Journal 32: The Saddest of All Prisons

The heart can be a very cruel prison because you can be bail out of jail through money and you can live on probational grounds. However, you are your heart and you can't fool your heart with faked good behaviors and you can't pay your heart lots of money to let you off the hook. Once your heart imprison you with guilt, hatred, love, or any kind of binding emotion you are imprisoned by your heart and unless you really feel that way you will never come out of your sentence. You can't fool yourself like you fool the jury with a very articulate lawyer because your heart knows what you're thinking. Keep telling yourself how you did not kill the person because you only pull the trigger; the bullet is the thing that killed it. However, you might fool your blind and maybe fooling a lie detector. If you have shame or guilt in you you can never fool your heart and you will forever live with that shame, sleep with that shame, wake up with that shame, enjoy life with that shame and it will be a tumor in your heart that you can't hide. Your guilt might change your behavior and the behavior might change your personality. All in all you are your heart's slave because you cannot fool your heart and your heart binds you with emotion that makes you act in certain ways. You can fool your mind, or other people but not your heart.