Journal 39: Young Again?

Sometimes a second chance helps, sometimes a second chance doesn't help. The question of being young again is not a simple one. There are lots to consider, if time itself went backward to when we are young then it would be a pleasing proposition because then I wouldn't be young without my friends with many good qualities. I think if i am to be young again all by myself it would be really strange. Everyone of my classmate looking down on me, thinking, "that wimp that can't face life and decided to escape from reality."If I could relive my childhood with all the knowledge I possess now, it would be so much easier and life would go so smoothly. It's hard not to learn from mistakes and apply it to the same exact situation because if the result of your action was terrible there is no reason you would repeat again especially if it's the same exact situation where the same action would yield the same result. Usually at wrong decisions that's always a right decision that you thought of but didn't choose. If i possess after-knowledge of once choice and that one choice being a bad take then there can only be one alternative that I thought of which even though might not be the right decision but may still be different from the original fail decision that got a bad ending.

Journal 38: Winter Holiday

I went to Japan the last winter break. However, this time it was better because instead of going with Derek, who I am not very familiar with, and Jason, who..., I went with a lot more people and a lot of these people I went with are people I am familiar with and are actually some of my best friends. No matter where I go, it is more important to be with friends. Whether it is MUN, skiing, or camping. As long as I am with my friends the days can't be that bad. The first week of winter break was a great success and also a great thrill. I also went to Austin's house for Christmas and that was fun. We chatted til very late and we drew on Patrick's face because he slept too early. We exchanged gifts and that was fun. Eddy gave a gift that's cookies in an iphone box and we all thought Eddy was giving Brian an iphone. That was funny and the night ended well. The worst part of winter break was when the second week come, when all the fun ends and winter break becomes a buffer for start of school. I never really understand how I work harder during winter break than I do during school days. But because I had too much fun in the first week, my mom doesn't allow me to have much fun in the second week so the second week was just mindless studying and finishing of homework.